New year...old me?

You've all heard the saying... "new year, new me!" Well, i'm here to say that this may come true for me, but not like you would think....

Given the circumstances that I am a teenage girl in high school continuing to learn and grow, I have come to realize throughout the years I've been losing pieces of myself. My personality will adapt to those who are around me which prevents me from being who I really am. As well as other people influencing the decisions I make that I normally wouldn't.

I have noticed that when I am alone, I am my best self. I notice things I do, habits I have, the witty comebacks I make when my family decides to try me. Everything I do in those moments are the rawest form of myself and letting that go without having to think about it is one of the best feelings in the world.

That being said, I am going to let myself go!! I am going to scream my lungs off to Adele and laugh at the looks I get from the cars next to me. I'm going to dance my heart out whenever i hear my favorite song. I'm going to stand by my opinions even when nobody else stands with me. I am going to make that funny comment when the timing is perfect and laugh at it if nobody else does. I am going to make every single moment worth it in my own way, because that's the only way I will enjoy it. I have been slowly trying to challenge myself to get back into that person but as the new year has arrived, I think this is a resolution I am going to try my hardest to stick with.

(HA, you thought it was gonna be some shiz like "eat healthier", "work out more". nope sorry just tryin as hard as I can to be myself. Didn't see that coming eh?)

On another note, hello! welcome! I never thought I would use something like this to share my thoughts and feelings but here I am! Please bare with me, i'm still getting used to the fact that I have to manually capitalize my "I's" when typing.... and that i'm exposing my inner feelings to the world....... or all two of you that are reading this. (Thanks mom and dad)

hope you enjoy :)